[Xanga] Wednesday, December 31, 2003 12:56am

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"The Simple Life"

[Xanga] Monday, December 29, 2003 2:26am

Justin was right, he was the only person I had. And now I have noone. He told me that I am alone now, and he was fucking right.

[Xanga] Sunday, December 28, 2003 1:36am

Yet another day I wake up alone...

[Xanga] Thursday, December 25, 2003 1:20am

Merry Christmas!!!!

Hope everyone has a great Christmas...Much luv to you all....

Love Always,

Stephanie

[Xanga] Tuesday, December 23, 2003 4:03pm

Okay so no guy has said "Hey" to me in person yet.....Nice try Patrick, for sending me a picture of you and typing the word "hey." lol!! Okay but this kinda sucks cuz I think I know the next guy I will see today and he will probably say hey to me and I don't want him to be my bf!! lol well neways...more later bye bye!

[Xanga] Monday, December 22, 2003 9:43pm

Ha I got it...the next guy that says "hey" to me(in person) is going to be my new bf. Lol. Let's see the outcome of this........return later for the results. haha.

Life sucks. Get the fuck out of the house. This is what I am doing.

I can't wait till x-mas eve cuz after Kmart closes at midnight, its showdown time! Me n Jess are racing in the old people carts around the store! AHAHAHAH.....this is going to be great.

In honor of Tarkio_Kid, BOO-Yah to gettin trashed on New Year's Eve!

Leaving the house now.....come find me.

[Xanga] Monday, December 22, 2003 6:47pm

I am going to sit in a corner and cry until I die...

[Xanga] Sunday, December 21, 2003 9:23pm

Currently Watching Hope Floats By Sandra Bullock, Harry Connick Jr. see related

Well I failed this semester at college. I am nothing but a failure. My life is slowly gettin worse. What do I do now? I have never done so poorly in my entire life. I just feel like giving up. I can't believe I fucked up. I am just fucked. Forever. And I am still lonely so this just makes for a depressing life.... huh? urghhh.....

[Xanga] Friday, December 19, 2003 3:53am

Hold me and don't let go. Hold my hand and hug me tight...keep me close forever. Tell me it's alright. Hold me close and please don't let me go, for if you do I will wake from this dream...never to see your face again....

[Xanga] Wednesday, December 17, 2003 1:49am

Currently Playing Fallen By Evanescence see related

There is MOST DEFINITELY a boyfriend in your future.

Never one to miss a chance to meet a guy, you're always "on" and it pays off.
At the grocery store, the video store, wherever…you're constantly on the
lookout for the next victim.

Not that you treat men like shit. Far from it! It's just that you love 'em so
much, it's hard to limit yourself to just one.

Like M&M's, except your men usually melt in your mouth. AND your hands. Mmmm!

Is There A Boyfriend In Your Future?

Okay so if there's a boyfriend in my future... where in the heck is he? I am tired of waiting. Urgh....lol.

[Xanga] Tuesday, December 16, 2003 3:59am

Some people and their bullshit....I just don't even know anymore, but owell.

Well I have just been chillen lately...my friend Ricky is teachin me how to play pool "correctly" because the way I used to hold the stick and play just wasn't cuttin it at all. lol.

I can't wait until Mary comes down because I haven't seen her since the summer and I think we will have fun when she gets here, so that will be cool.

I am just stayin the night at Trina's tonight and that's cool cus I never have and Jess just never does so shes missin out owell. Jess is making me mad, but I guess I can't help that because it is her choice if she wants to avoid her friends and not call or hang out with them nemore. So if she wants to sit there and be depressed then that's what she will have to do because she is not coming around enough to get any kind of help from me or anyone else. So when she decides to wake up and be friends with her friends then I guess she'll get it then but for now she's just feedin to much bullshit, more than I need to handle...so I ain't stressin.

well I'm out ........done bitchin for the night. later

[Xanga] Friday, December 12, 2003 3:47am

Okay, I don't feel "that way," yet I still get jealous over stupid lil things....what the hell?! I don't get it.

[Xanga] Friday, December 12, 2003 3:18am

Quick lil update before bed...

Just got home, I went with Nathan and Eric to Nathan's friend Michael's apartment. Yea I was just reminded how much I hate beer. Yea so Nathan is pretty funny when he's had alcohol. hehe. Oh and I can't play Vice City worth shit! Movin on....

Ps Eric....They are ghosts! lol G...Y...O.... i mean....G....O...lol......

My sissy is coming in a few weeks! YAY!

okay, I am going to bed my mom is driving me up the wall now...goodnight!

[Xanga] Wednesday, December 10, 2003 1:44pm

GO READ MARY HALL'S XANGA SITE!! Because she rocks and she's my sissy!! She's new to xanga, make her feel loved, leave some comments!

CALLING ALL PIMP JUICES! Please read! ~~>

I propose a pimp juice night out over X-mas break! Let's do this! hehe

[Xanga] Wednesday, December 10, 2003 2:00am

Holy Shit...it's been a week!

Well I guess you are all wondering where I have been...what I have been doing....I have been here, just bein stressed about school and being pretty depressed actually. School is over now....YES! But only for the semester...damn.

So a lot has been going through my mind and I decided I need to make some changes in my life. Just different stuff.

I am still sad because I have noone and I am alone...still. I don't understand it, I never go this long being single. I am not a "single" kinda person. I love relationships. I like it when I have someone I can confide in, someone to hug me when I am sad and tell me it's okay, someone to kiss me gently on my lips and catch the tears that are falling on my face, someone to hold my hand as we walk through this wretched thing we call life, just someone to be there for me and to make me smile even when things are at its worst, someone to love me, that's all. Where's my someone?

On the brighter side of things, I got some shoutouts...

Trina: she is first tonight because she rocks. and because she is actually online talking to me being a great friend and not being a punk. it was great working with u tonight Trina, we should kick your brother Brad's ass..lol. So I hope we can hang out tomorrow, that would be great ya know?...Anyways Trina, you are first k? and I think we should become closer than we are, because ur awesome and I think we are pretty honest with each other, which is kewl. So u got a long ass shout out and u should feel great. hehehe. go Trina!

Mary: Hey sissy! congrats on ur new xanga page! woo go you! If anyone wants to check out my sissy's page it is spunkymonkey304. She's awesome! Go sissy, I miss u and can't wait to see u in a few weeks! woo! <~~cheezer! lol ...304 forever!

Jessica: u blow, u didn't get on tonight, and u suck at calling me anymore. u should be smacked...lol...no long shout out for you. blah!

Larry: I am sorry I make your life miserable. I am just sorry.

Aaron M.: Hey there....u made me sad....lol...but that's okay...U need some love in your life.lol. have fun at school, cuz I am out now, hahahaha!

Nathan: I hope u feel better. I am sorry u had a bad day. Keep your head up though.

Brittany: dude wtf? where have u been? wtf? lol

Umm I think that's all for now..... I will be more exciting tomorrow!....lol bye bye guys!

Luv, Stephanie

[Xanga] Wednesday, December 03, 2003 2:03pm

I think I am just bummed because I think I totally blew this semester. At 12:30 pm on Tuesday, I will be able to sit back and relax....and I can't frickin wait. Next semester I need to make some changes....less work....less bummin around....more school. Man that sounds worse. Owell I need to get through college. Yup so Tuesday is my last final and I am done...woooo!!

Well I am off to Herron till round 5:30 or 6 so I will update more later guys.. bYe bYe!!!!

[Xanga] Wednesday, December 03, 2003 12:43am

Currently Watching Traffic By Benicio Del Toro, Michael Douglas see related

It's times like this when I just don't wanna be here anymore.

Fuck this game. I quit.

[Xanga] Tuesday, December 02, 2003 12:25am

Gotta love Linkin Park. I love Mike, he's hott. Yeah here's some quizzes, but don't forget to read my new entry after the quizzes! Bye now!

You're 'Daddy Mike'. You think Brad needs to be spanked.

What unlikable Linkin Park personality are you?

Got these both off my friend Cari's site but I thought this quiz was appropriate since I have been talking about Pornos a lot lately...lol.

Bondage movie! You're into BSDM (Bondage & Discipline, Dominance & Submission) and chances are, you're fond of whips, chains, harnesses,and tight leather outfits. You like to mix a little pain with a LOT of pleasure, baby!

What kind of porno would you star in?

Woah is all I have to say, I thought I was kinky, but woah this is crazy. lol .

[Xanga] Tuesday, December 02, 2003 12:05am

Okay okay. So I don't update for one frickin day and I get shit for it? Not kewl yo.

Here goes.

Today I have been frickin sick as hell. I managed to roll out of bed and go back to school today...gayness...I had psych at 9:30 am and I went there although it was boring as hell and we were supposed to have a frickin pitch in. That didn't happen cuz only a few people brought stuff and they only brought cookies, donuts, and fruit punch. Gayness again.

Went home. Felt even more sick. Was supposed to finish my art stuff before that class but instead I fell asleep cuz I started feeling dizzy. Woke up and went to that class and only stayed for like a half hour because I wasn't there the last class so I didn't have anything to do with me cuz I didn't get stuff for the new project yet, plus I was dying in there coughin n shit so she let me go home. Kewlness. Then I went home and went to sleep on the couch. I was soo dizzy I couldn't get up and my mom went to go get my medicine and came home n gave me some. I still feel like shit. My mom is not lettin me go to work tomorrow, I know they are going to have a cow, but fuck that.

So here I am not feelin like being on here but I am finishing a paper for English for tomorrow. I'd rather be in bed but I did sleep from like 5 till 11 so I am good for a few hours I think. Bein sick blows though.

Jessica finally got a new computer and aol. Congrats Jessica, now you are a part of the gayness. Now only if she knew how to use it. lol.

And for all u people commentin on Zantis's site for his last entry, You are only mad because u weren't invited to the porno party. ha.

Well I am kinda happy because I had a date this past weekend, but I am kinda weary of it because he is one of my best friends and I don't wanna lose that. I also started talking to an old friend again and he thinks we should start dating so I will give it a try. He's pretty awesome. ::winks:: for him......

I seen Justin's step dad at Kmart last week. Funny thing is he's gettin a divorce from Justin's mom and moving back to Michigan....but why u ask? Ha because she is cheatin on him with another guy. I think it runs in the family, because his sister did it too...more than once...and of course Justin did it to me so there. I told him he was doing a good thing by gettin out of that hell hole. That family is falling apart. Owell, not my problem anymore.

Well I'm gonna get off here and finish my English paper, in the words of Disturbed, I'm "down with the sickness." (at least I think that's what they say, I'm so confused right now....lol)

Shoutouts to Jessica and Trina: LOOK AT THAT, Jessica's name is before Trina's, Holy shit! She's gonna flip...lol.....I hate u guys for making me sick. You both are gonna get the shit beat out of you. Ross- Hey man I updated, what more do u want from me? Erich- Urgh at you for not coming to see me over break.....sadness..it's kewl though. Nathan- urgh at u.....just because I said so. U need to talk to me more. Bumness again.

And here's to the Pimp Juice Club: U guys liked that didn't ya? Yea I am awesome just go ahead and tell me! lol

Ok I am out now. Remember: Pornos are still fun to watch with friends, but don't hate if you are not invited to the party.

Luv, Stephanie

[Xanga] Sunday, November 30, 2003 12:30am

Pimp Juice for life, yo.

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[Xanga] Sunday, November 30, 2003 12:12am

This is for Sarah...and any other "Alleycat" that knows the inside joke. lol.

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[Xanga] Saturday, November 29, 2003 12:32am

Okay so I am addicted and I tried it again. I couldn't bare the thought of me living in a shack. This one is cool, although I ended up marrying Garrie. Odd.

You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a Silver Escalade.
You will marry Garrie and have 5 kids.
You will be a Psychologist in Florida.

[Xanga] Saturday, November 29, 2003 12:21am

Currently Playing In The Zone By Britney Spears see related

- Toxic

So I got bored and played it again. I guess I am gonna live in a shack. lol.

You will live in Shack.
You will drive a White Vw Beetle.
You will marry Nathan and have 4 kids.
You will be a Supervisor in Michigan.

http://www.playmash.com/

[Xanga] Friday, November 28, 2003 2:50am

Currently Playing In The Zone By Britney Spears see related

- Everytime

Well....

I figured it out.

I know why I am having soo much trouble finding a bf or just a potential "date." It is all due to the fact that the last time I was single and dated was in junior high/beginning of high school. The only "dating" I am used to is junior high dating. I haven't experienced true dating in the adult world. This is why I think I am scaring guys away. I don't know what I am doing wrong, but I am obviously doing something wrong because I am not getting anywhere. I am also a relationship person. It satisfies me more to be in a relationship rather than just be single and go from guy to guy. I like to be hugged, held, kissed, and I love for my bf to hold my hand. It is all those little things I love about having a bf and that's what I miss. I don't see me enjoying those things anytime soon though and that's sad. Because I think I need that more right now in my life than anything else. Sometimes I just wonder who it is that I am supposed to be with...and when will I meet him if I haven't already. Where's my special someone? It is almost Christmas....soon after that comes Valentine's Day....the most depressing day of the year. I can already see me being alone that day.Well I am going to end this because it is a sad entry and I am sorry but I had to let some things out I guess. My serious side hardly comes out anymore. Well hope everyone has a nice weekend.

Luv, Stephanie

[Xanga] Thursday, November 27, 2003 8:22pm

Happy Thanksgiving!!

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 26, 2003 2:56pm

I just remembered that Nathan tied my shoe when we went ghost hunting. lol.

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 26, 2003 12:58pm

Exact Quote of my Dad on the voicemail he left me today....

"Hey it's your dad, gimmie a call..............I..........OHH SHIIT!!......::Long Pause::.........uhh...the last time I........shit I just ran a red light....anyhow, just call me back!"

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 26, 2003 11:25am

OmG How crazy is this shit? lol. Mash is still awesome though. lol.

You will live in Shack.
You will drive a Black Hummer.
You will marry Scott and have 0 kids.
You will be a Singer/Dancer in Michigan.

http://www.playmash.com/

Hmm...

K. Well now I have played with my xanga site a lil bit and changed some things. U like? I am considering on going to premium for a month and see how I like it and everything like that...But for now...this is it....(ha, I stole the background off of a preview of a premium xanga skin...lol) I am bad. hehehe.

So today rocks because I have no school......and guess what? NO WORK! wooo!!! go me! woo!!!!

I am happy cuz yesterday I won 10 bucks off a 1 dollar scratch off ticket....I rock....

I felt special cuz Nathan's away message last night had my name in it! I rock...at least I hope he meant me....anyways I called u last night Nathan and u gave the phone to someone else and they hung up on me....not kewl....

Moving on.....I need to think of some fun things to put on here so u people don't get bored with me....urgh...lol

I will update more in a few.....bye guys

Luv, Stephanie

[Xanga] Tuesday, November 25, 2003 11:58am

I fucking hate essays.

I don't feel good at all. I am not going to English because I don't feel good. I am going to finish my essay and email it to my teacher I hope she takes it still.

I have to work at 4 and that sucks. Because I'm not feelin good.

I know this is not a very interesting update for everyone and I am sorry.

I can't wait to sleep in tomorrow! Now for shoutouts:

What's up Nathan, u doing better? we need to hang out.

Hey Phil, miss ya babe.

Hey Trina n Jessica.....why r we not hangin out nemore?

Hey Larry- nice to see u have a xanga site now....kinda mad at u though and u know why.

Umm that's all for now......

Here's a funny quote though from a funny site.

"I don't want to know your name....all I want is to BANG BANG BANG!!"

Luv, Stephanie

[Xanga] Friday, November 21, 2003 11:25pm

Currently Reading The Little Friend By Donna Tartt see related

Well....

Just some thoughts...

I miss Mary. I need to go see her. I am still sad about being alone, but I guess I will just sit back until I am blessed with someone to care for me. I really enjoy talking to John. He's an awesome talker. We have had some pretty interesting convos since we have known each other. I feel like I am losing some friends as well as gaining a few. MmMm... Pepsi. I bought my mom's x-mas present and now I am broke. I hate essays. I hate the Ramayana. I hate Cracking India. I hate projects. I hate powerpoint. I hate school. Work too. I hate being fat. I wish I wasn't ugly. I just wanna be held. The Little Friend is a good book. I miss having no responsibilities. My mind wanders a lot. lol. Pornos are fun to watch with friends. How come I can't get a date? Blah. I am on the phone with Phil now. Phil's funny. He just said "maters," as in the hick version of tomatoes. lol He said he's done talking. But he's still going and going.........and going......... and going.........and going..............and going. Phil is threatening me because I am writing things about him. Not nice. Phil said I am going to make him sound like a LOOOOSER......and he's like "everyone will think I am a LOSER!" Phil thinks the cowardly lion in the Wizard of Oz is gay because he has a bow. He just said he's going to kick my ass...... woo. He doesn't find this funny. Phil is actually Grimace! He's big n purple and he's from McDonalds. Even though he works at Dollar General. Yeah and everything's not even a dollar anymore! RIP OFF! Gimmie all your choco tacos NOW!!! Phil is chanting, "There's no place like home....there's no place like home....." If you don't know Phil....his xanga is PMREALGEM. So go there and check it out. He's a funny guy. I am so bored. Argh. I don't wanna go to work tomorrow!!! Urgh. Shoutouts. Hey Phil. How'd ya like all that? Hey John. I really appreciate your company. Ps- Pornos are still fun to watch with friends. Back to shoutouts. Hey Brittany. Where did WC go? lol. Phil is going to bed. Back to shoutouts. Hey Nathan. Hey Erich. Hey Trina. Hey Jessica. Hey Larry. Hey to everyone that I accidentally left out. Shoutouts have now ended. This was an interesting entry. Entry now closing.... Remember- Pornos are fun to watch with friends. Shoes? NO NO.....FUCK SHOES!! haha! Next time u see me.......gimmie a hug or a kiss.....because u love me..... That is all. Much love and choco tacos. Stephanie™

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 19, 2003 1:38pm

"Gimmie all your CHOCO TACOS!!!"

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 19, 2003 11:16am

First thought of today: I have to pee.

Yes since I am such a good friend I am still at school even though I don't have to be until 3:30 only because I am waiting for Brittany to get out of class so that we can go to lunch together. Aren't I awesome? ha.

Sooooo..I guess I will be going and update more later then eh?

Bye Everyone.

Ps- what's up to Nathan, ur awesome so cheer up k? hehehe

[Xanga] Tuesday, November 18, 2003 11:55pm

First and foremost.....I would like to give a shoutout to Brandon (Burnsdez) because he rocks and he deserves one because now is his time to receive a shoutout...lol! so Brandon...WAZZZZUUUUUP?!?! lol hehehe....

Thanks to Adam for sendin me a text porno..made my day lol....

Work sucked tonight!! I was so bored and I didn't even care what went on or who did what. I was not being a very good supervisor....lol .....owell...damn...Kmart can kiss my ass!

My cat just ate some chicken...he thought is was good....that is all....lol

I need some Pepsi. It is time for bed. I love sleep.

Hey Larry guess what? Fuck you. haha.

I think I just need to get laid again.....

Diane at work today picked up a box of flavored condoms in the go-back cart and said "hey they make flavored ones now?!" and we all just busted out laughing because that's nothing new.....she was like but why would they need to be flavored and Eric from Loss Control was like it's not for that area....and then he pointed to his mouth and Diane was like "What do u mean?" Then Eric was like it's so u can actually TASTE the banana! and Diane was still stumped. She asked Eric if u put them on bananas and he was like nooo!!!! Later on she finally got it and she was like that is sick!! I'm like I can't believe u Diane.... hahaha....she cracks me up....gotta love her...

It is so time for bed.

Ummm anything else.......Word of the night...."Nothing" because Larry said it was my favorite word...now I shall go kill him....

We watched singin in the rain today in film class....I never knew Gene Kelly was sooo HOTT!!! wow! anyways...I need to buy that movie now...lol I think I know why he is hott though....he looks like my ex bf John Harbor. He was fine as hell......miss that guy.....

Bedtime....now.....in 5.....4.....3...2..............and.........action!

[Xanga] Tuesday, November 18, 2003 3:10pm

Okay so I'm kinda calm today except for it's a really sucky day....it raining and all. Still kinda upset. Funny that all the friends that I haven't talked to in awhile all decide to call me at like 12:45 last night....Trina, Larry, and Jessica. Wierd. Anyways yea we are all cool now and by the way Jessica....I WON!! ahahahahahah!!!! Oh and I would like to give a shoutout to TRINA because she was bitchin cuz she says I never give her one...lol. Wtf Trina? ya know...just...wtf? haha!

My friend Scott has been calling me again...haven't heard from him in awhile. He is one of those best friends u never talk to except for short periods of time. Yea I am glad he's callin me again cuz I can use as many friends as possible....

I don't think Nathan is doing very well and I am kinda worried about him. I hope he is okay. Much love to u Nathan.

Well I am about to go to work so feel free to hit me up with some comments n stuff guys. Ps- what's up Erich?

Word of the day: HUG....because I need one.....

Much love....Stepherz

[Xanga] Monday, November 17, 2003 11:12pm

Currently Watching Ghostbusters By Bill Murray, Dan Aykroyd, Sigourney Weaver see related

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This is the pic that Erich made for ME! He made it a few weeks ago but I figured I would post it now because after all he is pretty awesome and the pic rocks...especially because those are my eyes....isn't it beautiful?

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Silly Doc, dressers are for clothes!

My kitty is soo pretty, isn't he?

[Xanga] Monday, November 17, 2003 8:07pm

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[Xanga] Monday, November 17, 2003 11:35am

Funny that Phil is ranting about life being bad right now because that is just what I was going to do.

Yea so my entire weekend in a nutshell: Depressing with a lot of tears.

Everyday sucked. Friday I worked 1-10pm.....and I had to be at work the next day at 6:30 am....that didn't work with me well and I was very pissed so I didn't even give a shit that I was 15 min late on Saturday....So Saturday at work I get bitched out for everything that the cashiers do wrong. I mean I guess I am their mother now or something. Yea so this all upset me. Then later Saturday me and my mom argue and I start crying and ranting on about my sucky life and I was just entirely depressed the whole night. I went to Greenwood mall with my mom later but it still didn't help me like I had hoped. Then Sunday...just take a guess at what time I had to be at work that day....yea u r right!! 6:30 am!! What a schedule I have! So my manager tells me that I have to be on register the rest of the day when I get back from lunch because I have ONE customer complaint. She said I didn't smile (and if any of u know me well enough that is something I do not do often...I mean when I am just relaxed...I'm not smilin all big okay?! That's just my facial expression, I take it after my mom!) and she said I was rude and that I am slow. I was not rude to anyone that day and I am definately not slow I am the fastest person there! My manager had enough nerve to tell me that I am slow and I was like whatever and walked away....I mean I was teary eyed and it really upset me.

Well anyways this depression led to other things...like me being upset because I have no "special someone" in my life. I mean fuck Justin for leaving me like this. I don't think he knows what he did. Urghh....I just need someone to hang out with and get to know better someone that can give me company so I am not so lonely. That's all....

Jessica hasn't even said shit to me since the other day but I guess that's because I told her that I wasn't talking to her because of that one night she pissed me off......but how long is she going to let this continue? urgh I just don't appreciate when friends lie to me...That's all.....And if you are reading this Jessica.......get over it and just don't lie to me...all will be well k?

Well now that I have bitched enough I better end this......

Ps- Nathan....dude call me or something... what happened to you? I must have scared u away.....darn my stupid ass...

Well if anyone would like to adopt me as their depressed friend let me know......gotta go........

Bye

lonely as fuck....Stephanie

[Xanga] Friday, November 14, 2003 3:14am

So I went to the graveyard with Nathan and Eric...um yea....wierd...took some pics, which I will post later...umm I will tell u all later about what happened cuz I am off to bed....bye guys!! muah!

[Xanga] Thursday, November 13, 2003 3:00pm

Currently Playing Meteora By Linkin Park see related

- Numb

Going ghost huntin tonight after work...wooo except for Brittany can't go....that sucks I mean I don't wanna go by myself....well I wouldn't be by myself I would have Nathan and them...but I want someone to go with me to Greenwood....urgh!

I have to go to work now.....sucks!!!

Word of the day....chicken...hehe......

Keep dreamin about me.....lata!