[Xanga] Monday, November 17, 2003 11:35am

Funny that Phil is ranting about life being bad right now because that is just what I was going to do.

Yea so my entire weekend in a nutshell: Depressing with a lot of tears.

Everyday sucked. Friday I worked 1-10pm.....and I had to be at work the next day at 6:30 am....that didn't work with me well and I was very pissed so I didn't even give a shit that I was 15 min late on Saturday....So Saturday at work I get bitched out for everything that the cashiers do wrong. I mean I guess I am their mother now or something. Yea so this all upset me. Then later Saturday me and my mom argue and I start crying and ranting on about my sucky life and I was just entirely depressed the whole night. I went to Greenwood mall with my mom later but it still didn't help me like I had hoped. Then Sunday...just take a guess at what time I had to be at work that day....yea u r right!! 6:30 am!! What a schedule I have! So my manager tells me that I have to be on register the rest of the day when I get back from lunch because I have ONE customer complaint. She said I didn't smile (and if any of u know me well enough that is something I do not do often...I mean when I am just relaxed...I'm not smilin all big okay?! That's just my facial expression, I take it after my mom!) and she said I was rude and that I am slow. I was not rude to anyone that day and I am definately not slow I am the fastest person there! My manager had enough nerve to tell me that I am slow and I was like whatever and walked away....I mean I was teary eyed and it really upset me.

Well anyways this depression led to other things...like me being upset because I have no "special someone" in my life. I mean fuck Justin for leaving me like this. I don't think he knows what he did. Urghh....I just need someone to hang out with and get to know better someone that can give me company so I am not so lonely. That's all....

Jessica hasn't even said shit to me since the other day but I guess that's because I told her that I wasn't talking to her because of that one night she pissed me off......but how long is she going to let this continue? urgh I just don't appreciate when friends lie to me...That's all.....And if you are reading this Jessica.......get over it and just don't lie to me...all will be well k?

Well now that I have bitched enough I better end this......

Ps- Nathan....dude call me or something... what happened to you? I must have scared u away.....darn my stupid ass...

Well if anyone would like to adopt me as their depressed friend let me know......gotta go........

Bye

lonely as fuck....Stephanie