[Xanga] Wednesday, December 31, 2003 12:56am

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"The Simple Life"

[Xanga] Monday, December 29, 2003 2:26am

Justin was right, he was the only person I had. And now I have noone. He told me that I am alone now, and he was fucking right.

[Xanga] Sunday, December 28, 2003 1:36am

Yet another day I wake up alone...

[Xanga] Thursday, December 25, 2003 1:20am

Merry Christmas!!!!

Hope everyone has a great Christmas...Much luv to you all....

Love Always,

Stephanie

[Xanga] Tuesday, December 23, 2003 4:03pm

Okay so no guy has said "Hey" to me in person yet.....Nice try Patrick, for sending me a picture of you and typing the word "hey." lol!! Okay but this kinda sucks cuz I think I know the next guy I will see today and he will probably say hey to me and I don't want him to be my bf!! lol well neways...more later bye bye!

[Xanga] Monday, December 22, 2003 9:43pm

Ha I got it...the next guy that says "hey" to me(in person) is going to be my new bf. Lol. Let's see the outcome of this........return later for the results. haha.

Life sucks. Get the fuck out of the house. This is what I am doing.

I can't wait till x-mas eve cuz after Kmart closes at midnight, its showdown time! Me n Jess are racing in the old people carts around the store! AHAHAHAH.....this is going to be great.

In honor of Tarkio_Kid, BOO-Yah to gettin trashed on New Year's Eve!

Leaving the house now.....come find me.

[Xanga] Monday, December 22, 2003 6:47pm

I am going to sit in a corner and cry until I die...

[Xanga] Sunday, December 21, 2003 9:23pm

Currently Watching Hope Floats By Sandra Bullock, Harry Connick Jr. see related

Well I failed this semester at college. I am nothing but a failure. My life is slowly gettin worse. What do I do now? I have never done so poorly in my entire life. I just feel like giving up. I can't believe I fucked up. I am just fucked. Forever. And I am still lonely so this just makes for a depressing life.... huh? urghhh.....

[Xanga] Friday, December 19, 2003 3:53am

Hold me and don't let go. Hold my hand and hug me tight...keep me close forever. Tell me it's alright. Hold me close and please don't let me go, for if you do I will wake from this dream...never to see your face again....

[Xanga] Wednesday, December 17, 2003 1:49am

Currently Playing Fallen By Evanescence see related

There is MOST DEFINITELY a boyfriend in your future.

Never one to miss a chance to meet a guy, you're always "on" and it pays off.
At the grocery store, the video store, wherever…you're constantly on the
lookout for the next victim.

Not that you treat men like shit. Far from it! It's just that you love 'em so
much, it's hard to limit yourself to just one.

Like M&M's, except your men usually melt in your mouth. AND your hands. Mmmm!

Is There A Boyfriend In Your Future?

Okay so if there's a boyfriend in my future... where in the heck is he? I am tired of waiting. Urgh....lol.

[Xanga] Tuesday, December 16, 2003 3:59am

Some people and their bullshit....I just don't even know anymore, but owell.

Well I have just been chillen lately...my friend Ricky is teachin me how to play pool "correctly" because the way I used to hold the stick and play just wasn't cuttin it at all. lol.

I can't wait until Mary comes down because I haven't seen her since the summer and I think we will have fun when she gets here, so that will be cool.

I am just stayin the night at Trina's tonight and that's cool cus I never have and Jess just never does so shes missin out owell. Jess is making me mad, but I guess I can't help that because it is her choice if she wants to avoid her friends and not call or hang out with them nemore. So if she wants to sit there and be depressed then that's what she will have to do because she is not coming around enough to get any kind of help from me or anyone else. So when she decides to wake up and be friends with her friends then I guess she'll get it then but for now she's just feedin to much bullshit, more than I need to handle...so I ain't stressin.

well I'm out ........done bitchin for the night. later

[Xanga] Friday, December 12, 2003 3:47am

Okay, I don't feel "that way," yet I still get jealous over stupid lil things....what the hell?! I don't get it.

[Xanga] Friday, December 12, 2003 3:18am

Quick lil update before bed...

Just got home, I went with Nathan and Eric to Nathan's friend Michael's apartment. Yea I was just reminded how much I hate beer. Yea so Nathan is pretty funny when he's had alcohol. hehe. Oh and I can't play Vice City worth shit! Movin on....

Ps Eric....They are ghosts! lol G...Y...O.... i mean....G....O...lol......

My sissy is coming in a few weeks! YAY!

okay, I am going to bed my mom is driving me up the wall now...goodnight!

[Xanga] Wednesday, December 10, 2003 1:44pm

GO READ MARY HALL'S XANGA SITE!! Because she rocks and she's my sissy!! She's new to xanga, make her feel loved, leave some comments!

CALLING ALL PIMP JUICES! Please read! ~~>

I propose a pimp juice night out over X-mas break! Let's do this! hehe

[Xanga] Wednesday, December 10, 2003 2:00am

Holy Shit...it's been a week!

Well I guess you are all wondering where I have been...what I have been doing....I have been here, just bein stressed about school and being pretty depressed actually. School is over now....YES! But only for the semester...damn.

So a lot has been going through my mind and I decided I need to make some changes in my life. Just different stuff.

I am still sad because I have noone and I am alone...still. I don't understand it, I never go this long being single. I am not a "single" kinda person. I love relationships. I like it when I have someone I can confide in, someone to hug me when I am sad and tell me it's okay, someone to kiss me gently on my lips and catch the tears that are falling on my face, someone to hold my hand as we walk through this wretched thing we call life, just someone to be there for me and to make me smile even when things are at its worst, someone to love me, that's all. Where's my someone?

On the brighter side of things, I got some shoutouts...

Trina: she is first tonight because she rocks. and because she is actually online talking to me being a great friend and not being a punk. it was great working with u tonight Trina, we should kick your brother Brad's ass..lol. So I hope we can hang out tomorrow, that would be great ya know?...Anyways Trina, you are first k? and I think we should become closer than we are, because ur awesome and I think we are pretty honest with each other, which is kewl. So u got a long ass shout out and u should feel great. hehehe. go Trina!

Mary: Hey sissy! congrats on ur new xanga page! woo go you! If anyone wants to check out my sissy's page it is spunkymonkey304. She's awesome! Go sissy, I miss u and can't wait to see u in a few weeks! woo! <~~cheezer! lol ...304 forever!

Jessica: u blow, u didn't get on tonight, and u suck at calling me anymore. u should be smacked...lol...no long shout out for you. blah!

Larry: I am sorry I make your life miserable. I am just sorry.

Aaron M.: Hey there....u made me sad....lol...but that's okay...U need some love in your life.lol. have fun at school, cuz I am out now, hahahaha!

Nathan: I hope u feel better. I am sorry u had a bad day. Keep your head up though.

Brittany: dude wtf? where have u been? wtf? lol

Umm I think that's all for now..... I will be more exciting tomorrow!....lol bye bye guys!

Luv, Stephanie

[Xanga] Wednesday, December 03, 2003 2:03pm

I think I am just bummed because I think I totally blew this semester. At 12:30 pm on Tuesday, I will be able to sit back and relax....and I can't frickin wait. Next semester I need to make some changes....less work....less bummin around....more school. Man that sounds worse. Owell I need to get through college. Yup so Tuesday is my last final and I am done...woooo!!

Well I am off to Herron till round 5:30 or 6 so I will update more later guys.. bYe bYe!!!!

[Xanga] Wednesday, December 03, 2003 12:43am

Currently Watching Traffic By Benicio Del Toro, Michael Douglas see related

It's times like this when I just don't wanna be here anymore.

Fuck this game. I quit.

[Xanga] Tuesday, December 02, 2003 12:25am

Gotta love Linkin Park. I love Mike, he's hott. Yeah here's some quizzes, but don't forget to read my new entry after the quizzes! Bye now!

You're 'Daddy Mike'. You think Brad needs to be spanked.

What unlikable Linkin Park personality are you?

Got these both off my friend Cari's site but I thought this quiz was appropriate since I have been talking about Pornos a lot lately...lol.

Bondage movie! You're into BSDM (Bondage & Discipline, Dominance & Submission) and chances are, you're fond of whips, chains, harnesses,and tight leather outfits. You like to mix a little pain with a LOT of pleasure, baby!

What kind of porno would you star in?

Woah is all I have to say, I thought I was kinky, but woah this is crazy. lol .

[Xanga] Tuesday, December 02, 2003 12:05am

Okay okay. So I don't update for one frickin day and I get shit for it? Not kewl yo.

Here goes.

Today I have been frickin sick as hell. I managed to roll out of bed and go back to school today...gayness...I had psych at 9:30 am and I went there although it was boring as hell and we were supposed to have a frickin pitch in. That didn't happen cuz only a few people brought stuff and they only brought cookies, donuts, and fruit punch. Gayness again.

Went home. Felt even more sick. Was supposed to finish my art stuff before that class but instead I fell asleep cuz I started feeling dizzy. Woke up and went to that class and only stayed for like a half hour because I wasn't there the last class so I didn't have anything to do with me cuz I didn't get stuff for the new project yet, plus I was dying in there coughin n shit so she let me go home. Kewlness. Then I went home and went to sleep on the couch. I was soo dizzy I couldn't get up and my mom went to go get my medicine and came home n gave me some. I still feel like shit. My mom is not lettin me go to work tomorrow, I know they are going to have a cow, but fuck that.

So here I am not feelin like being on here but I am finishing a paper for English for tomorrow. I'd rather be in bed but I did sleep from like 5 till 11 so I am good for a few hours I think. Bein sick blows though.

Jessica finally got a new computer and aol. Congrats Jessica, now you are a part of the gayness. Now only if she knew how to use it. lol.

And for all u people commentin on Zantis's site for his last entry, You are only mad because u weren't invited to the porno party. ha.

Well I am kinda happy because I had a date this past weekend, but I am kinda weary of it because he is one of my best friends and I don't wanna lose that. I also started talking to an old friend again and he thinks we should start dating so I will give it a try. He's pretty awesome. ::winks:: for him......

I seen Justin's step dad at Kmart last week. Funny thing is he's gettin a divorce from Justin's mom and moving back to Michigan....but why u ask? Ha because she is cheatin on him with another guy. I think it runs in the family, because his sister did it too...more than once...and of course Justin did it to me so there. I told him he was doing a good thing by gettin out of that hell hole. That family is falling apart. Owell, not my problem anymore.

Well I'm gonna get off here and finish my English paper, in the words of Disturbed, I'm "down with the sickness." (at least I think that's what they say, I'm so confused right now....lol)

Shoutouts to Jessica and Trina: LOOK AT THAT, Jessica's name is before Trina's, Holy shit! She's gonna flip...lol.....I hate u guys for making me sick. You both are gonna get the shit beat out of you. Ross- Hey man I updated, what more do u want from me? Erich- Urgh at you for not coming to see me over break.....sadness..it's kewl though. Nathan- urgh at u.....just because I said so. U need to talk to me more. Bumness again.

And here's to the Pimp Juice Club: U guys liked that didn't ya? Yea I am awesome just go ahead and tell me! lol

Ok I am out now. Remember: Pornos are still fun to watch with friends, but don't hate if you are not invited to the party.

Luv, Stephanie