I guess I am not good enough for anyone. My day today was okay except for the fact that I got turned down a few times. It's like I should just give up on tryin to find a boyfriend all together. Yea I see myself a few months down the road sittin there chillen like 20- something pounds lighter and guys tryin to get with me, I am gonna be like hold up! What was soo wrong with me a few months ago?? Was I too fat for ya? Too embarrassing to be seen with? I mean what the fuck!? Yea so I am at work and this lady at my work is tryin to get this girl I work with hooked up with her son. Keeping in mind this girl is really pretty and not fat and also she just broke up with her bf and not to mention would not have a problem finding another one within the next week! I was like heyyyy I need a bf where's my hook-up? So then I automatically just shut up because I knew I wasn't good enough. Because that girl could get a guy over me anyday. Then later tonight I am talking online and someone tells me they don't like me. Woah talk about let down....Then I read about this other guy I liked has a new gf.....I mean.....I am just not on anyone's "wanna date" list am I??? So I just give up on tryin to find a new bf, because I am not good enough for anyone and noone looks for personality anymore which I think I have an awesome one and all u guys r just missing out. But wait till I lose weight, guys will come askin me out, and they will be turned down, because they were too stuck up to give me a chance before. That shit don't fly with me.
Well on a lighter note, I am losing weight, I have been on this diet for 5 days now and I have lost 4 pounds. YAY! It is working!.....I have been excercising too. I am proud of myself. I am totally committed this time. 
I am tryin real hard not to get all depressed and to feel better about myself but it is just soo hard. I have to do better from now on, in school, my health, life, and everything else. I have to do this, even if people shoot me down. I know I am a good person, they r just missing out. Owell. Well I am off now.....goodnight everyone. and as always....leave some comments! bye bye
Love, Stephanie
1 comment:
Well, first of all... I don't have a new girlfriend, as i told you before, i'm not looking right now. I want time alone since i just got out of a 1 year relationship. The girls house i was at is a friend of mine. Nothing more. So don't give your hopes up yet.
Posted 1/7/2004 7:24 PM by HatEater
alright go here so i can yell at you http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=spunkymonkey304
Posted 1/7/2004 7:39 PM by spunkymonkey304
I'm sorry Nathan.
Posted 1/7/2004 9:23 PM by PinkMidnightKiss
No Prob Bob.
Posted 1/8/2004 2:17 AM by HatEater
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