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2004

Listening to: Limp Bizkit "Results May Vary"

This cd reminds me of 2004. What is it about 2004 that I miss so much...

The way I saw things...the way I felt...

Something about the trip to Kentucky.
Something about the silos down in Shelbyville.
Spontaneous.

Maybe it was a year that showed promise. I don't know.
There is just something about this cd and that year that I always think about.

Hmm.

i was right.

and if you were the cause of it, then you make me sick.

"ink" (rough draft)

i still remember your hands
so delicate and soft
to the eye

i remember your touch
so delicate and soft
to the skin

i dream of you
but i no longer see your face
i dream of you
with your back facing me
it's the ink in your back
that i see bleeding
the ink in your back
that i am needing

it's indescribable
the way it felt
to watch you
be happy with me
to watch you
bleed for me

it's something about the ink
in your back
something about the wings
in your back
they made me believe

i still can't see your eyes
they are what i fell for
i still can't see your face
but there are your hands...
never once interlocked with mine
but still connecting
through the ink in your back
that i bled for you.

(Unfinished)

you untied my ribbon
and pulled me along with it
then you slid right off of the silk
and faded

it takes two pieces
to make the knot

it's cliche

it takes two pieces
to make one

you slid right off

im nothing but an untied ribbon
waiting to be snagged
waiting to be unraveled
im nothing but an untied ribbon
waiting to be pulled out

Previously written...

take me back to the time

before relationships existed

--in my life

before i so desperately needed

to find new love

in order to relieve myself

of the old love

only to be hurt again...

why is there this need?

a need to be held...

kept.

kept is the past tense of

keep:

to have or retain possession of.

retain:

continue to have (something); keep possession of

not abolish, discard, or alter

keep in one's memory

absorb and continue to hold

do not abolish, discard, or alter...

absorb.

will you absorb me?

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my mind is my enemy
it tracks my life.

maybe i wont.

i dont have the passion.

(Unfinished)

im wrapped around your finger,
im pulled tight

how's it feel
how's it feel to own me

u dont even have to care
u could hurt me to no end
and i will still be there

you are erasing me
i can feel it

one day at a time

you are erasing me
im transparent

im out of your mind

you have more power
than anyone in my life
you control my heart

hmm

i think i may write more.