[Xanga] Sunday, November 30, 2003 12:30am

Pimp Juice for life, yo.

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[Xanga] Sunday, November 30, 2003 12:12am

This is for Sarah...and any other "Alleycat" that knows the inside joke. lol.

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[Xanga] Saturday, November 29, 2003 12:32am

Okay so I am addicted and I tried it again. I couldn't bare the thought of me living in a shack. This one is cool, although I ended up marrying Garrie. Odd.

You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a Silver Escalade.
You will marry Garrie and have 5 kids.
You will be a Psychologist in Florida.

[Xanga] Saturday, November 29, 2003 12:21am

Currently Playing In The Zone By Britney Spears see related

- Toxic

So I got bored and played it again. I guess I am gonna live in a shack. lol.

You will live in Shack.
You will drive a White Vw Beetle.
You will marry Nathan and have 4 kids.
You will be a Supervisor in Michigan.

http://www.playmash.com/

[Xanga] Friday, November 28, 2003 2:50am

Currently Playing In The Zone By Britney Spears see related

- Everytime

Well....

I figured it out.

I know why I am having soo much trouble finding a bf or just a potential "date." It is all due to the fact that the last time I was single and dated was in junior high/beginning of high school. The only "dating" I am used to is junior high dating. I haven't experienced true dating in the adult world. This is why I think I am scaring guys away. I don't know what I am doing wrong, but I am obviously doing something wrong because I am not getting anywhere. I am also a relationship person. It satisfies me more to be in a relationship rather than just be single and go from guy to guy. I like to be hugged, held, kissed, and I love for my bf to hold my hand. It is all those little things I love about having a bf and that's what I miss. I don't see me enjoying those things anytime soon though and that's sad. Because I think I need that more right now in my life than anything else. Sometimes I just wonder who it is that I am supposed to be with...and when will I meet him if I haven't already. Where's my special someone? It is almost Christmas....soon after that comes Valentine's Day....the most depressing day of the year. I can already see me being alone that day.Well I am going to end this because it is a sad entry and I am sorry but I had to let some things out I guess. My serious side hardly comes out anymore. Well hope everyone has a nice weekend.

Luv, Stephanie

[Xanga] Thursday, November 27, 2003 8:22pm

Happy Thanksgiving!!

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 26, 2003 2:56pm

I just remembered that Nathan tied my shoe when we went ghost hunting. lol.

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 26, 2003 12:58pm

Exact Quote of my Dad on the voicemail he left me today....

"Hey it's your dad, gimmie a call..............I..........OHH SHIIT!!......::Long Pause::.........uhh...the last time I........shit I just ran a red light....anyhow, just call me back!"

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 26, 2003 11:25am

OmG How crazy is this shit? lol. Mash is still awesome though. lol.

You will live in Shack.
You will drive a Black Hummer.
You will marry Scott and have 0 kids.
You will be a Singer/Dancer in Michigan.

http://www.playmash.com/

Hmm...

K. Well now I have played with my xanga site a lil bit and changed some things. U like? I am considering on going to premium for a month and see how I like it and everything like that...But for now...this is it....(ha, I stole the background off of a preview of a premium xanga skin...lol) I am bad. hehehe.

So today rocks because I have no school......and guess what? NO WORK! wooo!!! go me! woo!!!!

I am happy cuz yesterday I won 10 bucks off a 1 dollar scratch off ticket....I rock....

I felt special cuz Nathan's away message last night had my name in it! I rock...at least I hope he meant me....anyways I called u last night Nathan and u gave the phone to someone else and they hung up on me....not kewl....

Moving on.....I need to think of some fun things to put on here so u people don't get bored with me....urgh...lol

I will update more in a few.....bye guys

Luv, Stephanie

[Xanga] Tuesday, November 25, 2003 11:58am

I fucking hate essays.

I don't feel good at all. I am not going to English because I don't feel good. I am going to finish my essay and email it to my teacher I hope she takes it still.

I have to work at 4 and that sucks. Because I'm not feelin good.

I know this is not a very interesting update for everyone and I am sorry.

I can't wait to sleep in tomorrow! Now for shoutouts:

What's up Nathan, u doing better? we need to hang out.

Hey Phil, miss ya babe.

Hey Trina n Jessica.....why r we not hangin out nemore?

Hey Larry- nice to see u have a xanga site now....kinda mad at u though and u know why.

Umm that's all for now......

Here's a funny quote though from a funny site.

"I don't want to know your name....all I want is to BANG BANG BANG!!"

Luv, Stephanie

[Xanga] Friday, November 21, 2003 11:25pm

Currently Reading The Little Friend By Donna Tartt see related

Well....

Just some thoughts...

I miss Mary. I need to go see her. I am still sad about being alone, but I guess I will just sit back until I am blessed with someone to care for me. I really enjoy talking to John. He's an awesome talker. We have had some pretty interesting convos since we have known each other. I feel like I am losing some friends as well as gaining a few. MmMm... Pepsi. I bought my mom's x-mas present and now I am broke. I hate essays. I hate the Ramayana. I hate Cracking India. I hate projects. I hate powerpoint. I hate school. Work too. I hate being fat. I wish I wasn't ugly. I just wanna be held. The Little Friend is a good book. I miss having no responsibilities. My mind wanders a lot. lol. Pornos are fun to watch with friends. How come I can't get a date? Blah. I am on the phone with Phil now. Phil's funny. He just said "maters," as in the hick version of tomatoes. lol He said he's done talking. But he's still going and going.........and going......... and going.........and going..............and going. Phil is threatening me because I am writing things about him. Not nice. Phil said I am going to make him sound like a LOOOOSER......and he's like "everyone will think I am a LOSER!" Phil thinks the cowardly lion in the Wizard of Oz is gay because he has a bow. He just said he's going to kick my ass...... woo. He doesn't find this funny. Phil is actually Grimace! He's big n purple and he's from McDonalds. Even though he works at Dollar General. Yeah and everything's not even a dollar anymore! RIP OFF! Gimmie all your choco tacos NOW!!! Phil is chanting, "There's no place like home....there's no place like home....." If you don't know Phil....his xanga is PMREALGEM. So go there and check it out. He's a funny guy. I am so bored. Argh. I don't wanna go to work tomorrow!!! Urgh. Shoutouts. Hey Phil. How'd ya like all that? Hey John. I really appreciate your company. Ps- Pornos are still fun to watch with friends. Back to shoutouts. Hey Brittany. Where did WC go? lol. Phil is going to bed. Back to shoutouts. Hey Nathan. Hey Erich. Hey Trina. Hey Jessica. Hey Larry. Hey to everyone that I accidentally left out. Shoutouts have now ended. This was an interesting entry. Entry now closing.... Remember- Pornos are fun to watch with friends. Shoes? NO NO.....FUCK SHOES!! haha! Next time u see me.......gimmie a hug or a kiss.....because u love me..... That is all. Much love and choco tacos. Stephanie™

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 19, 2003 1:38pm

"Gimmie all your CHOCO TACOS!!!"

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 19, 2003 11:16am

First thought of today: I have to pee.

Yes since I am such a good friend I am still at school even though I don't have to be until 3:30 only because I am waiting for Brittany to get out of class so that we can go to lunch together. Aren't I awesome? ha.

Sooooo..I guess I will be going and update more later then eh?

Bye Everyone.

Ps- what's up to Nathan, ur awesome so cheer up k? hehehe

[Xanga] Tuesday, November 18, 2003 11:55pm

First and foremost.....I would like to give a shoutout to Brandon (Burnsdez) because he rocks and he deserves one because now is his time to receive a shoutout...lol! so Brandon...WAZZZZUUUUUP?!?! lol hehehe....

Thanks to Adam for sendin me a text porno..made my day lol....

Work sucked tonight!! I was so bored and I didn't even care what went on or who did what. I was not being a very good supervisor....lol .....owell...damn...Kmart can kiss my ass!

My cat just ate some chicken...he thought is was good....that is all....lol

I need some Pepsi. It is time for bed. I love sleep.

Hey Larry guess what? Fuck you. haha.

I think I just need to get laid again.....

Diane at work today picked up a box of flavored condoms in the go-back cart and said "hey they make flavored ones now?!" and we all just busted out laughing because that's nothing new.....she was like but why would they need to be flavored and Eric from Loss Control was like it's not for that area....and then he pointed to his mouth and Diane was like "What do u mean?" Then Eric was like it's so u can actually TASTE the banana! and Diane was still stumped. She asked Eric if u put them on bananas and he was like nooo!!!! Later on she finally got it and she was like that is sick!! I'm like I can't believe u Diane.... hahaha....she cracks me up....gotta love her...

It is so time for bed.

Ummm anything else.......Word of the night...."Nothing" because Larry said it was my favorite word...now I shall go kill him....

We watched singin in the rain today in film class....I never knew Gene Kelly was sooo HOTT!!! wow! anyways...I need to buy that movie now...lol I think I know why he is hott though....he looks like my ex bf John Harbor. He was fine as hell......miss that guy.....

Bedtime....now.....in 5.....4.....3...2..............and.........action!

[Xanga] Tuesday, November 18, 2003 3:10pm

Okay so I'm kinda calm today except for it's a really sucky day....it raining and all. Still kinda upset. Funny that all the friends that I haven't talked to in awhile all decide to call me at like 12:45 last night....Trina, Larry, and Jessica. Wierd. Anyways yea we are all cool now and by the way Jessica....I WON!! ahahahahahah!!!! Oh and I would like to give a shoutout to TRINA because she was bitchin cuz she says I never give her one...lol. Wtf Trina? ya know...just...wtf? haha!

My friend Scott has been calling me again...haven't heard from him in awhile. He is one of those best friends u never talk to except for short periods of time. Yea I am glad he's callin me again cuz I can use as many friends as possible....

I don't think Nathan is doing very well and I am kinda worried about him. I hope he is okay. Much love to u Nathan.

Well I am about to go to work so feel free to hit me up with some comments n stuff guys. Ps- what's up Erich?

Word of the day: HUG....because I need one.....

Much love....Stepherz

[Xanga] Monday, November 17, 2003 11:12pm

Currently Watching Ghostbusters By Bill Murray, Dan Aykroyd, Sigourney Weaver see related

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This is the pic that Erich made for ME! He made it a few weeks ago but I figured I would post it now because after all he is pretty awesome and the pic rocks...especially because those are my eyes....isn't it beautiful?

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Silly Doc, dressers are for clothes!

My kitty is soo pretty, isn't he?

[Xanga] Monday, November 17, 2003 8:07pm

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[Xanga] Monday, November 17, 2003 11:35am

Funny that Phil is ranting about life being bad right now because that is just what I was going to do.

Yea so my entire weekend in a nutshell: Depressing with a lot of tears.

Everyday sucked. Friday I worked 1-10pm.....and I had to be at work the next day at 6:30 am....that didn't work with me well and I was very pissed so I didn't even give a shit that I was 15 min late on Saturday....So Saturday at work I get bitched out for everything that the cashiers do wrong. I mean I guess I am their mother now or something. Yea so this all upset me. Then later Saturday me and my mom argue and I start crying and ranting on about my sucky life and I was just entirely depressed the whole night. I went to Greenwood mall with my mom later but it still didn't help me like I had hoped. Then Sunday...just take a guess at what time I had to be at work that day....yea u r right!! 6:30 am!! What a schedule I have! So my manager tells me that I have to be on register the rest of the day when I get back from lunch because I have ONE customer complaint. She said I didn't smile (and if any of u know me well enough that is something I do not do often...I mean when I am just relaxed...I'm not smilin all big okay?! That's just my facial expression, I take it after my mom!) and she said I was rude and that I am slow. I was not rude to anyone that day and I am definately not slow I am the fastest person there! My manager had enough nerve to tell me that I am slow and I was like whatever and walked away....I mean I was teary eyed and it really upset me.

Well anyways this depression led to other things...like me being upset because I have no "special someone" in my life. I mean fuck Justin for leaving me like this. I don't think he knows what he did. Urghh....I just need someone to hang out with and get to know better someone that can give me company so I am not so lonely. That's all....

Jessica hasn't even said shit to me since the other day but I guess that's because I told her that I wasn't talking to her because of that one night she pissed me off......but how long is she going to let this continue? urgh I just don't appreciate when friends lie to me...That's all.....And if you are reading this Jessica.......get over it and just don't lie to me...all will be well k?

Well now that I have bitched enough I better end this......

Ps- Nathan....dude call me or something... what happened to you? I must have scared u away.....darn my stupid ass...

Well if anyone would like to adopt me as their depressed friend let me know......gotta go........

Bye

lonely as fuck....Stephanie

[Xanga] Friday, November 14, 2003 3:14am

So I went to the graveyard with Nathan and Eric...um yea....wierd...took some pics, which I will post later...umm I will tell u all later about what happened cuz I am off to bed....bye guys!! muah!

[Xanga] Thursday, November 13, 2003 3:00pm

Currently Playing Meteora By Linkin Park see related

- Numb

Going ghost huntin tonight after work...wooo except for Brittany can't go....that sucks I mean I don't wanna go by myself....well I wouldn't be by myself I would have Nathan and them...but I want someone to go with me to Greenwood....urgh!

I have to go to work now.....sucks!!!

Word of the day....chicken...hehe......

Keep dreamin about me.....lata!

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 12, 2003 11:11pm

Currently Reading Cracking India: A Novel By Bapsi Sidhwa, R. W. Scholes see related

GHOST HUNTING TOMORROW NIGHT...WOO! see you all there!

Sorry guys I got quiz happy!! lol lemme know what u think of my outcomes!! lol..hehehe....

*Thug Bear*

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?

Congratulations, you are the kiss my ass happy bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything. You must be so proud!

Which happy bunny are you?

*You're asshole.*

What swear word are you?

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 12, 2003 12:55pm

Currently Playing Atticus: Dragging the Lake 2 By Various Artists see related - - - - -

BoyCrazySexyGrl: whatever i'll stomp you
BttrflyKiss2003: r u fuckin fat bastard u gonna squish me?!?!

BoyCrazySexyGrl: Well he'll come around and youll be the next to go just like me BIATCH!!!!
BttrflyKiss2003: who the fuck says biatch anymore?
BoyCrazySexyGrl: well obviously i do moron
BttrflyKiss2003: then i guess ud be the moron huh??

Some people....

You're Shirley Manson, you saucy girl.

What sexy girl are you?

So why did I wake up today in my entire Kmart attire? I mean I had the pants, shirt, and everything on...even the nametag!! I even had my override key on my arm still! WTF?

Hey Nathan can u fix me some grilled cheese sandwiches? OH THAT'S RIGHT....YOU DON'T KNOW HOW!! lol hehe I am just kidding with u...lol....fuck grilled cheese...lol

Word of the day: Orgasm...use that in a sentence!

[Xanga] Tuesday, November 11, 2003 3:02pm

Currently Playing Hybrid Theory By Linkin Park see related

Haha...well I am back from class and I see hardly any comments?! come on guys....jeeze...lol

I am gettin ready for work so if you feel the need to come see me at work then do so....I work at Kmart...blah!!

Shoutouts.....Hey Phil!!!!!!! hope u r having a good day...mine has been uneventful... Hey Erich? haven't really talked to u in awhile what's up!? Hey Nathan!! we gonna meet up tomorrow and actually talk maybe?! jeeze lol!!

Well Remember this guys....PM is MY Gem! lol ha....

[Xanga] Tuesday, November 11, 2003 12:44pm

It is me....Stephanie!! hehe

Omg last night was wierd!? Why was I chillen with a hot guy? Yea I dunno either but if any of you have went to Sunny Beaches...u know who it is....wow! I am kinda weary though if he's for real so I dunno....

I also talked to Phil last night and he loved my lil side note for yesterday...hehe...I feel bad though I was actually talkin with him and then I started gettin reeaaal tired so I had to cut it short and let him go....I actually went to bed earlier which might not have been a good idea since I needed to do my homework...owell...school sucks right now because all I am doing and is striving to get through it and I am soooo tired!! urgh... I hate school!! oh and Phil....the HEHEHE!! girl on ur site sounds like a BIA! I would definately go with the anonymous girl...she sounds sweet!

So today I woke up and went to film class....we watched some French movie called "Breathless" and it sucked and I slept almost the entire time! man!

Now I am off to English and that sucks cuz I didn't finish my homework but owell.... I gotta go now so I will talk more later..

Word of the Day: Sex........leave some comments...!!!

[Xanga] Monday, November 10, 2003 2:50pm

Holy shit it is Monday! Look how long I have not updated.....argh!

Well I will elaborate more later about my weekend.

But anyways today I met Nathan. I met him in the food court at school and he seemed pretty cool except for he was in a hurry and didn't have time to talk to me........Well I hope he doesn't think I'm a weirdo.

Haha.....This fine lookin dude name Gene wants to hang out with me...What are the odds?! lol

Hey Phil it's okay that u were busy I understand but hey we'll keep tryin to hang I promise!...lol

Well hey guys I have to go now....but remember....P.M. IS A REAL GEM!!!

[Xanga] Thursday, November 06, 2003 1:25pm

PENIS
.........what do u think about that........

[Xanga] Thursday, November 06, 2003 12:20pm

Hey guys!

Well......I hope I will have a fun weekend. I have a few people who wanna hang out with me so hopefully that will all fall through well. I have to work tonight until 11 and then tomorrow I work 9-6pm. So after that I don't know what I am doing. Anyways I think I should give some shout outs...

Phil- Hey babe what's up....hey what's up with the anonymous person leaving stuff on ur site..huh?? lol

Brandon- Hey I am glad ur back now. We need to hang out more now though. I think we'd have fun so lemme know when ur free...

Erich- You still comin this weekend? ha...this should be interesting...anyways I will talk to u later...

Jessica- I just wanted to let u know that I was in the kitchen cleaning a dish and I heard it so I came out.......k? k.....lol!!

Well guys that's all for now....until later just remember....I am under your bed!! lol

[Xanga] Wednesday, November 05, 2003 7:13pm

Currently Watching North by Northwest By Cary Grant, Eva Marie Saint see related

Okay...updating time...

Yesterday I went to school.....then me and Britt went tanning. Now I am all red...ouch! I had to work at 4 which sucked because I hate that place. Anyways I got to see Brandon because he came up to Kmart and we chilled for a bit. It was good to see him since I haven't seen him in such a long time. And that about sums up yesterday. Today I went to psych and then came home and watched The Price is Right!! woo!! I love that show! Then I finished my art project so that I could turn it in today. I went to my color and design class at 3:30 which I was a few minutes late because I was still finishing up my project. Yea so the whole class we just talked about everyone's work and I had no idea what to say I was like umm yea...So that brings me up to now which now I am watchin North by Northwest for film class cus I miss part of it on Tuesday. So now I am really bored n tired. I am really cold too!!

So now for the update on guys....You know how I was dating for awhile and then all of a sudden I had noone to date? Yea well now I am gettin back in the game!! Woo hoo!! At least I hope I am because I haven't actually went on any dates yet..lol. But I have a few guys in mind and I think it's all good. hehe.

I made an awesome picture on my computer, well actually it is a remake of a pic I did before on my digital camera. Anyways here it is...

[picture was originally here "http://portfolio.iu.edu/sameans/distort1.JPG"]

See ain't that this shiznit? Hey if anyone has one of those firsts and lasts quizzes, I wanna fill one out so lemme know and send it to me....k? k.

Well that's all for now kids....just remember this......"FUCK SHOES!!"

hahaha........

[Xanga] Tuesday, November 04, 2003 9:22am

Brandon Day is back from boot camp! YAY!

Thanx for all the comments yesterday guys......well I'm off to school...bye!

[Xanga] Monday, November 03, 2003 11:08am

OK...Topic of today...I need a boyfriend...lol. Anyways I am just a relationship person. I can only be single for so long because I start to feel upset and unwanted. I mean I have been single now for almost 4 months. And the last time I was single before that was 3 years ago. Anyways.... yea so I am seriously wanting to date people and meet new people so feel free to hit me up. I dated for like a month and all those guys turned into either wierdos or they went back out with their ex. MAN! hehehe.....anyways I like this new chatterbox thing I have. It's awesome so feel free to leave me a line or too....hehe Well I am off to my business class so I'll get back to u all later... I wanna see some comments! lol.

[Xanga] Sunday, November 02, 2003 11:59pm

NO I AM NOT AFRAID OF THE CAMERA!! I didn't even plan the two pics being alike thing. And another thing......Yes I like BSB and KORN....can't a person like all kinds of music?....Urgh... People are so rude....

[Xanga] Sunday, November 02, 2003 4:48am

I was an angel for Halloween.... hehe

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